Love, a committed relationship & marriage with my SP

Sapphire K.· Started Aug 12, 2026 · Day 36 of practice

Have been on a prayer and manifestation journey for most of the 3+years of knowing my SP and I am sure about him and willing to do the inner work to manifest, but have to also overcome my CPTSD and let my new self concept stick. I am manifesting a loving, committed relationship with my SP. Not just our business partnership or our friendship to last, but I want commitment. I am manifesting a committed relationship and even marriage with him. I want to experience the version of him who is completely in love with me, committed to loving me and unafraid to do so LOUDLY. I want him to be loud about it like Gomez, yearning for me and expressing his love for me openly to me and to others. I want our relationship to be public, and for him to only ever look at me. I am manifesting him to be naturally committed, loyal and faithful to me, only looks at me, only wants to be with me and only desires me. He only feels desire and love if it is with me.

I'm pregnant with our first child. My SP already knows now about the vivid dreams I had of our children the past few years since we met. We're both so happy together, so aligned with each other and so excited to welcome our child to the world. I am so loved and easily receive love, commitment and care, because that is the kind of person I am. My SP is so in love with me and we are happy in our marriage with each other. We have a very healthy relationship with each other, and we are both healed, stable and at peace within ourselves and with each other. Our business we run together is thriving, and we both feel fulfilled by it. Our relationship with my family and SP's family is very healthy, and we have a strong, healthy bond with both families. I am adored and accepted by both. I am always loved, the first priority, and always supported. Money is so good and comes so easily to me that I can always buy anything I want and need. Everything I want comes to me immediately with ease. I am healed, I am safe, and my nervous system and subconscious knows now that I am safe. I can immediately afford anything I want or need to invest in myself in any way. My hormone levels are balanced and stable, I am at my peak athlete-level physique with low fat mass and high muscle mass. All clothes look incredible on me with my body. I look stunningly beautiful in every way. I feel it, and so does my SP who loves me. I am always loved and always chosen by everyone. I am at peace and have a good relationship with God, and so does my SP. We happily pray and meditate together every day, and our home together is such a safe, warm and peaceful place.

Bridge of Events, Signs & Synchronicities

Aug 12, 2026Journey begins
The journey toward Love, a committed relationship & marriage with my SP begins.
Dec 12, 2022Sign / synchronicity
I have a vivid, unusual dream. An older woman crying in prayer, hands together, begging God for help and forgiveness, saying she is worried for her son and feels she failed him. I feel the love, fear, and sadness. I don't recognise her and brush it off as just a dream.
Dec 29, 2022Bridge event
First met SP
Jan 15, 2023Bridge event
Friendship progresses & deepens. We are talking all day every day, he is going out of his way to see me, come to my workplace and even take up a job at my work to take care of me
Feb 1, 2023Bridge event
He gets more and more sweet, kissing my forehead, holding hands, letting me sleep on his shoulder.
Jun 5, 2023Bridge event
While watching a movie one night, he kisses me after a tickle fight. The kiss deepens into something intense and feel sparks, but he abruptly stops before going further, claiming he got nervous
Jun 15, 2023Bridge event
Things complicate since the kiss, he grows distant, suddenly there is friction between us as our relationship is questioned beyond friendship. I realise late that i truly love him and want to try a relationship even though i am afraid (due to trauma). An argument happens over a misunderstanding over work, I lash out assuming the worst of him and he gets hurt. He asks for time apart. Distance, but no clue of how long that would be.
Jul 1, 2023Bridge event
SP goes quiet for a while, almost ghosting but not quite. I panic, spiral and all my anxious attachment comes out. He asks to meet, but then tells me when meeting to give up on him and that he would let me move on and find a "better man" who would treat me the way i "deserve". I get hurt, cry and felt confused by it. He didn't want to explain but he looked so sad, hurt and cried with me. The only time i saw him ever cry. He genuinely looked so sad and hurt too which confused me considering what he was saying.
Jul 2, 2023Bridge event
Determined to get him back, I even turn to God and pray, which I had not done in a long time due to trauma and grief. I end up praying in ways i never did before. I pray all day every day, but still with an anxious heart and disregulated nervous system- the slightest trigger or bad mood from SP caused me to spiral and panic about us, and i habitually watched his profiles to see girls he was talking to. Fearful me with my abandonment wounds from family and trauma of exes leaving me for other women/cheating caused me to assume the worst of him, that instead of the depression he mentioned, i assumed he was either cheating, married or chose someone else. I assumed someone was taking him away from me or lies and betrayal, because that's what i was used to from other people in the past (even family). I prayed in panic, begging God for help but felt lost and scared.
Jul 20, 2023Sign / synchronicity
I realise while praying and getting to know more about SP's life and background that the old woman I had dreamt about at the end of last year was his mother. She was crying praying for him, my SP. As if she had hurt or failed him, that caused his wounds.
Aug 1, 2023Bridge event
After that intense prayer asking God to help me be close to SP and finally have love and commitment with him, I suddenly lose my job. Boss falsely accuses and defames me for standing up for myself, SP tries to defend and help me at work. I end up leaving the company, and he leaves with me.
Aug 10, 2023Bridge event
I try to find a new job quickly to maintain my visa, but am given a short time of only a few days to find a replacement. No company accepts, and even say a lot of inappropriate things about it. My mental health takes a hit with uncertainties. At the same time, SP & i start working together on small work projects and he observes my situation.
Aug 29, 2023Sign / synchronicity
I grow desperate. No jobs came up, the visa grace period runs out, I show up to immigration afraid and uncertain if I will still be allowed to live there on the way out of the building. I repetitively say a lot of prayers, desperate for help. I declared that i would leave it in God's hands, even though i was afraid. I asked God to buy more time for me with SP. I didn't want to leave like that, and i didn't want to lose him. The officer gets aggressive with me, silences me during the assessment and did not allow me to speak. But when i looked up, i noticed her hands and body trembling in a weird way while working. On her wrist, she wore a crystal bracelet, almost identical to mine. Suddenly, she returned new documents to me, that declared i was accepted for a business visa. I had no business yet, didn't have a plan to, and had never done business before. But i was given the visa without applying which is usually impossible. She told me to go. I called SP, and on the spot, we decided to set up a business together.
Oct 13, 2023Bridge event
We go deep into brainstorming business ideas together and trying out a few ideas with research. i stayed hopeful about our relationship, and he still stayed relatively open to me with hugs and spending time together.